Friday, April 11, 2008

Losing my confidence over $600 reimbursement (pfblogs.org)

I thought I'd get a head start on the reimbursement paperwork for the $2,000 class to invest in my career. My other co-worker submitted his reimbursement and was expecting the check soon. Of course he didn't have to fill out the same paperwork - his boss just needed the receipt and it would come out of their budget.Last weekend I was anxiety ridden. I cried while sitting in the office studying for 6+ hours banging my head over math. I cried because for the last three months I've had no life. I barely saw my friends, barely had a social life, ate a lot of progresso soup, tuna salad sandwiches or deli sandwiches I made or bought at Subway but gained $2,000 worth of knowledge. I didn't go to Austin for SXSW to see bands and my friends. I called my therapist and took a lot of deep breaths. She reminded me I know more than I may think. I thought about all those hours studying in the office and the knowledge I've gained. I looked at my books and couldn't believe how much progress I've built. Then I stopped panicking and somehow gained a lot of confidence about my ...